This, my first blog post, will be short. But I had gone "nostalgic" lately and was thinking about the past. I was listening to 90's alt-rock on the way to work this morning and I couldn't help but think about how cool that music was. Then, I got to thinking "was it the music, or the time I listened to it"? Kids these days would probably have no respect for the likes of Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Screaming Trees, Social Distortion, Candlebox, and many other great bands of the time.
Yes, the music was great. Was it the best made music of any generation? Probably not. But what I remember is how it connects to a time that has long since sailed into the sunset. Those were the days where I was not a nobody at the office. I had my group of friends, which were closer and better than any I had in highschool. These were true friends. They called me every Friday and Saturday night looking for the plan. We would all meet up and party the nights away like it was something special. And it was. We hung out on the grassy mall, we went out for pizza and happy hour. Double dated and just kicked back occasionally. No one was above another, and no one was trying to one-up the other. In my mind, every day was sunny.
Those times are gone now. Reality and responsibility are now my life. Wife, kids, dog, cat, and mortgage are my everyday duties. Days have become monotonous, and predictable. Friends have parted ways, and lost touch, even in this ever connected world of the Internet. I feel like I now don't know the direction. I don't know the goals. I feel like I am a robot put here to make my family run, but have lost my own soul.
I have to say, I have let myself become more secluded and much less social since then. I don't really know why. I long for those days where I would live for the weekends, and the only stress I had was preparing for finals, or the next term paper. I felt like a king for those few years. I did what I wanted, spent my money on things for myself, and lived life for myself.
I still have the memories though. No one can take that away from me. The days of living life as it was meant to be. Young. Fun. For myself. Smells Like Teen Spirit, Tomorrow, Selling the Drama... they all still allow me to escape this current world for a much better place in time and space. Sometimes when I hear these songs, I just think back to those day where I lived so care-free, and just smile.
